School starts in less than a week..I got my schedule study hall first pierod. My locker is 722. All my classes are shit except I have Studio Art with Ms. Salamon. She's "rad." If my schedule gets changed like last year I'll be pissed off.
(A)Study Hall ---Peterson
(B) Earth Science Lab ---Cunningham
(A)Studio Art --Salamon
(B) Math A Prep ---MRS. Talbot
(AB)Global II --Cook
(AB)English II --waltersdorf
(AB)Earth Science --goodspeed
(AB)Spanish 3 --WHITFORD
(A)Gym 9*10 --Pagano
(B) Health --LawSaunders
Nick and I .....well we aren't dating and we aren't friends. I've done my growing up and I relize now that he needs to spend time with his family and friends, and make some new ones...it's his senior year and I want him to be happy. He won't talk to me and he told Lauren that we are never getting back together...never ever. Soo it sucks and I would still like to be his friend if I can't be anything more. I know he didn't leave me for Hillary...and if she makes him happy...then good he is happy. But if any girls and that includes Hillary think they can fuck with Nick's emotions and just use him or lead him on..they have got another thing coming because I will fucking murder them. (ahh and here comes my bi-polarness) I want him to be happy...but this pain for me is over-barring, us not being friends I mean. I have completely accepted the fact he left me..I would just like to be friends. Right now...even if he wanted me back I couldn't take him back because I too need some time for myself..and with my friends. I would just like for us to be mature about breaking up because we had a mature friendship...I would like to be friends...and right now only friends. But..I can't do anything.
I had a wierd dream about prom....and that made me wonder if we are still going. Because he asked me to go with him already..but we aren't dating now, it's wierd.....and he always wanted to bring me to his prom. But prom is far away and one of the least of my worries. I would just like to be his friend.
Am I pathetic or what?!
Conner was over yesterday..I'll put what happened in my friend's only part because...well...I'm just not ready for him. Too much waaayy to fast. It feels as if he doesn't even care about my emotions. I don't know..I thought he was genuine and differnt....Are all guys the same?
My dad had his surgery today... I can't stand to see his face swollen...the 16th we find out if it is cancer. Please pray for him...My mom got a job...not a good one but it will hold us over until the place calls my dad back for his job. hmmm....
OH YEAH. I'm going to see Fall Out Boy! Motion City Soundtrack (ehh) and BOYS NIGHT OUT! and THE STARTING LINE! kick ass! :-)
Taking steps back
through the worlds I should've said to you
they all got lost
you went away
well I feel sick and you just don't care
Until next time Livejournal....
</3 </3 Sara Ann